September 10th, 2001

GIR

this isn't a discotheque, darling, this is the theatre of the stars...

I have morbid daydreams...

I lie in bed, gazing glassy-eyed at the wall, wondering exactly how long it would take for someone to find my bloated corpse.

Would it be days? How long until I'm missed? Until Tiffany or Annette begin to worry in earnest?

Or would it be weeks? My neighbors complaining about a sickening sweet rotting death smell, emanating from... somewhere...

Such daydreams come about from living alone. I think that's my only fear being by myself, that I should die, and not be found until after my corpse has bloated past its possible bloat and popped, spreading my inner goodness all over my living area...

Reminds me of when I worked in property management, we turned down this one shy, quiet guy for an apartment, and instead sent him to one of our sister communities... he then, a month later, shot himself in the head, the remains of his face and body landing on, yes folks, a SPACE HEATER.... The barbeque smell was so rancid and horrible, that they had to evacuate everyone in that building, as the smell had worked its way into the cooling system and walls, so they had to redo EVERYTHING.

I heard horror stories all the time, of managers finding bloated corpses, even, once on my day off, there had been a man that lived above and over one from me, and they found him face down in a pool of blood, after downing a bottle of pills and a bottle of vodka, and had fallen off the couch to land on - and break - the bottle... He lived, but moved out shortly after... I had been home that whole day, and had missed the paramedics and everything...

*shrug* don't ask me what brought on this topic, except that I found myself lying in bed again, that familiar daydream flitting past my eyes, curious as to how long.....

Funny. Death doesn't scare me (much like it TERRIFIES my brother it's just the fear of not being found, of not being missed....
  • Current Music
    Imperial Drag - Dandelion
GIR

danger danger...? DANGER FREAKING DANGER?!?

I finally got to watch the top 40 hair bands of all time yesterday. I was laughing my ass off, cuz I was sitting there, singing along with all the bands, "smooth up" by bulletboys (as well as "thc groove" they played in the background), faster pussycat (of course), hanoi rocks, even some of the bands I couldn't stand, such as Steelheart and Firehouse... I was almost rolling on the floor when Trixter came on (they were talking about how they were teens and all, and i was shouting at the screen that they LIED about their ages, they were all in their mid-twenties, it came out later in a horrid Trixter bashing moment, when the guys confessed the label insisted they subtract years from their lives for good publicity..)...

what i wanna know is.. how the HELL did Danger Danger, of all freaking bands, place at TWENTY FIVE??? above even Tesla, who had WAAAAAY more hits than they? egad! And trixter was pretty far up there, too... On the good, but cheesy, part, though, I finally got to see most of the video for "Naughty Naughty", which is about the only hair band video i DON'T have recorded on my 30 some tapes of old Headbanger's Ball *snickers and blushes* And even Extreme placed way low, I could see them being in the top 20 before either of those bands...and L.A. Guns place REALLY high, too.. makes me wonder how they rate those things...

OH OH OH!!! (not to be confused by dislexics as a premature Christmas greeting *slaps knee*) I finally got to see my first Woody Allen movie! I took all of your suggestions, and rented "Annie Hall" from the library... I freaking laughed my ass off all the way through... Then, just now in the break room, I saw a tall spindly old guy walk in to put something in the fridge, wearing a black hat, round glasses, and sporting a looong bushy beard...

I left grinning like an idiot, remembering the scene where he meets Annie's grandmother for the first time...

Oh, and I also went to Peter Piper Pizza yesterday, yes, by myself. I think the girl behind the counter had a crush on me... I ordered the kids meal, which comes with two free tokens, and she gave me four, then she also gave me two free bracelets to go with my lovely knew jelly gitter rings I got with my tickets I won :D It was great fun, it was...

anyhoo.. off to work...
  • Current Music
    freaking Firehouse freaking going thru my freaking head
GIR

once again...

cleaning out my friends list again, so, if any of you get booted and either really don't wanna (you find enjoyment out of my blathering), or if you find yourself booted, or whateva, it's nothing personal. Since I don't have email at home, it's making it hard for me to keep up with my friends list and such. It just may mean that I don't feel we have much in common anymore... it may mean that you haven't posted in a long time...

whatever..

please forgive me...
  • Current Music
    Faster Pussycat - Madam Ruby's Love Boutique
GIR

once again...

cleaning out my friends list again, so, if any of you get booted and either really don't wanna (you find enjoyment out of my blathering), or if you find yourself booted, or whateva, it's nothing personal. Since I don't have email at home, it's making it hard for me to keep up with my friends list and such. It just may mean that I don't feel we have much in common anymore... it may mean that you haven't posted in a long time...

whatever..

please forgive me...
  • Current Music
    Faster Pussycat - Madam Ruby's Love Boutique
GIR

you guys (http://www.livejournal.com/users/aubreystar/friends/) rawk.

Love you all, truly. You help keep me sane. *one big exaggerated nod*

*stops*
*flaps arms around like a 10 year old girl in a fight*
*laughs out loud at self*
*stops, looks around*
*laughs again, wondering what coworkers are thinking she's doing*

Darn gnats, anyhow.

*glares at bug, as it flits away to annoy someone else*

I'm now in 3 minutes overtime. :) I think I may stick around for a few minutes before forcing myself to go to the gym. *heavy lazy sigh* I wanna drop 10 more lbs. before the Halloween cruise. Course, the way I've been freaking eating lately (much like a bear does prior to harbination), I need to work on it. I've just been feeling so LOUSY off and on, which sucks. Maybe my system is sick of living off toast?